Drifting in Depression…
Posted March 12, 2008 byCategories: My Almost Daily Nonsense
There is that point when you are swimming that you just lay back and let the water roll over your body; a liquid blanket that just barely covers you from the break into air, your face just barely making the journey from one state to the other: water to air… suffocation to life. The edges make shy flirtations into your breath, subtle threats to steal you away from the firmament. You can just lay there in limbo, only one inhalation from rising too far from the comfort of the water… only one exhalation from giving away too much air from your lungs and lowering to the depths.
That is how I feel just now, like I am just floating on the surface one breath away from two worlds–I don’t dare enter one too fully and I can’t stand the other… and I’m not merely content to float in limbo for too long. It’s depressing. I’m depressed.